I am afraid to put this stuff into writing: Ryan has a great job and a great girlfriend. Amy is about to graduate with a Masters in Chemistry, has a long-term job lined up, and has a great husband. Her Hawkeyes lost today, but they had a great season. Hayley is set to graduate in May, has already been accepted to an ivy league medical school, and has a fabulous group of friends. This cannot be my life. Two minutes in which to breathe.

Dad is so upset and obsessed...I wish that he had some peace of mind in his senior years. He breaks my heart daily. Jim feels cheated in a game that he never should have been playing. The fam situation is in a place so bad that I am actually grateful that mom doesnt need to bear witness. My immediate family is in a great place, wheras my blood family is a mess. Chris's isn['t much better. His mother will never again be invited to our house. Her choice. Bitch. Lest I forget, I will recount her first words upon hearing that we were expecting Ryan; "I am too old to be a grandmother!" She's a peach, eh? No wonder that none of the kids like her. Nor do her sister, her brother, her niece, and any of her cousins. Live by the sword and die by the sword.

Hip, Revisited

I knew this was coming. I tried to ignore it. I WILL NOT give in to self-pity. Things could be worse. I wish that I could fast-forward to April 30, but I cannot. So be it.

Ethics?

I am wondering if the whole universe has lost a sense of ethics. First, Wall Street, and now a doctor who would implant eight...or even four...embryos in a single mom who has six children already. I am perplexed, and I am starting to sound like my father. Oh, my...

Will this fun never end?

Cursed groundhog.

Looking for decorating ideas for Amy's room...it looks too empty now that she is married. I knew that I would miss them one day! Need an inspiration...once I get started, it will be easy, but I am having trouble getting off the mark.

Saw "Slumdog Millionaire" yesterday, and then shared dinner with friends while the Superbowl finished up. In the past month, I think that I saw 6 movies...and in the past decade, I think that I have seen 12 movies TOTAL, so YOU figure it out! "SM" was probably the best...original. I am too old to see many "new" concepts. I read LONG ago that Bollywood would be a force to be reckoned with, and perhaps the future is now.

This is my first attempt at a blog. I promise to not bore you too often, but this is kind of interesting and I know that no knowledge is wasted. SOMEDAY, I might need to know this protocol...maybe if I get onto "Do You Want to be a Millionaire?"